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On Rejection

I’ve been reading WRITERS GONE WILD by Bill Peschel. In it is the following brief section on rejections.

Rejections are tough, but never have I had to deal with anything close to these. I’m thankful for that.

Calming the Anxiety: Part 1

When I was a sophomore in high school, I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder (depression as well, but for the purposes of this post, I’m focusing on the anxiety). I was 15 and had no idea what anxiety was, but I knew something was wrong. How did I know this?

  • I couldn’t sleep and was averaging around two hours of fitful sleep every night.
  • I didn’t want to get out of bed in the morning. Or ever.
  • The thought of seeing more than a few people scared me.
  • The idea of school made me sweat, dry-heave, and cry.

After being made to go to school, I’d sit in class and literally shake until the end of each period. I couldn’t handle being called on. I couldn’t handle the groups of 15+ every period. Having to walk down jammed hallways and sit in a full cafeteria was complete hell. The fact that I made it through each day was something to celebrate, albeit a small something.

I wasn’t given a prescription then. Instead, I was directed to meditation, which I hadn’t heard much about. My parents were given brochures, which I read through. (They assumed everything was a phase, and weren’t overly worried.) At home that night, I gave meditation a try.

I’m 32 now, and I’ve been meditating daily for 17 years. Meditation isn’t easy, and even after all these years, it’s sometimes hard to know if I’m “doing it right.” I’ve learned to understand that for many, “doing it right” isn’t something to worry about. Meditation is a journey of sorts, and you learn as you go. It’s a wonderful thing and has been one of the very few constants in my life as of late.

My general “schedule” (for lack of a better term) is pretty basic. As soon as I wake in the morning, I sit up and I meditate for at least fifteen minutes (yes, I set my alarm for an earlier time to accommodate this). At noon, regardless of where I am, I meditate again for at least ten minutes (if possible). Then, at night before bed, I meditate another time for at least a half hour. If I find the day to be especially stressful, I’ll fit in shorter “emergency meditations” as often as I feel I need to. This schedule may seem cumbersome or interrupting to some, but to be quite honest, I wouldn’t be able to survive a day without it. These moments of mindfulness help stop my mind from racing, help me avoid negative/dangerous thoughts, and force me to realize that anxiety, while sometimes downright frightening, can be temporary and can be controlled.

Because meditation is such a mainstream practice now, there are plenty of apps, videos and the like to assist in meditation practices. I use an app called Calm (which you can learn more about here. The free tier allows for a number of meditations (guided and not), and if you’d like to experience things further, there’s a subscription. Through this app (as well as the subscription), you’ll find meditations that focus on emergency anxiety relief, sleep, muscle relaxation, self-confidence, and many other things. I’ve tried a handful of other apps, and while all of them are fantastic, this one has been my favorite and has done the most good for me on a daily basis.

There are plenty of people in the world who dismiss meditation as “hippie garbage” or a thousand other colorful phrases. That’s fine; we all have our opinions on things. However, I believe meditation can save a life. It’s saved mine a number of times. I’ve been asked over the years if meditation really works, and my answer has been “yes” every time. I like sharing my story, and have done so a couple of times (this is an abbreviated version, of course; I could talk about meditation for days). I think it’s important for skeptics to hear stories like mine. While it may not sway them, I think it still plants the seed that maybe, just maybe meditation does help.

More soon.

Missing Blogger…Found!

Can you believe it’s been AN ENTIRE YEAR since I’ve posted here? Goodness. So much has happened.

I moved to Cedar Rapids, Iowa to take a new job. Six months later, I was laid off after my department was eliminated, and I moved back to Wisconsin. I bought a new (used) car and started a new job.

Perhaps the most important part of the last year was my graduation from Lesley University’s MFA program, which happened at the end of June. That was difficult for many reasons, the biggest being that I miss all of my writing friends terribly. And it feels odd to not having set writing deadlines.

But I suppose that’s something that we’ll all deal with and learn to work through.

Along with graduation comes a small amount of extra time. I’ve been using some of that extra time to get back here. I’ve given my site a little makeover, which I hope you’ll enjoy. At the moment, my pages are set to private so I can give them a facelift as well. I have some big(ger) plans and can’t wait to start implementing them.

So, here we are. I’m still writing, still reading, and still learning. I’m still here. So stay tuned, friends. I’ll write again soon.




“The main thing is to write for the joy of it.” — Seamus Heaney.

Farewell, good sir.
Thank you for everything you’ve given us over the years.

Intern Blog Post #4 for Feminine Studios

It’s my last week as an intern for the wonderful ladies over at Feminine Studios in Colorado Springs. I can’t believe how quickly these last three months have gone by! I’m hoping to be able to maybe extend the internship or perhaps work on a paid basis, but that remains to be seen.

One of my new posts is up over on the FS blog! It’s called “5 Simple Tips to Better Self-Esteem” and you can read it here.

Happy Writing,

Intern Blog Post #3 for Feminine Studios

It’d been a little while since I’ve posted, but a lot of things have been happening! I’ll hopefully be back to a regular posting schedule soon. For now, though, my third blog post as an intern for Feminine Studios is up on the blog! It’s all about keeping the frizz out of your hair, and with the crazy hot and humid weather we’ve all been experiencing lately, I bet a lot of us could use the help.

You can read it here, if you’d like!

I have two weeks left in my internship. It’s gone by so quickly already! As I stated before, this kind of writing is a new area of exploration for me and I’m really enjoying it. It’s always nice to change topics and writing gears every now and then!

I’m hoping to have more posted soon. Until then, stay tuned!

Happy Writing,

Intern Blog Post #2 for Feminine Studios

My second blog post for Feminine Studios has been posted to their blog! It’s about de-stressing and doing so quickly. And in today’s world, who doesn’t need that every once in a while? If you’re interested, the post can be read here.

I’m having a blast with this internship so far! I’m nearly halfway through already and the writing has been so much fun! Stay tuned for more soon.


Happy Writing,