Intern Blog Post #1 for Feminine Studios

As you know, I’m currently interning as a writer for Feminine Studios out in Colorado Spring. My first blog post is up on their blog! You can check it out here. It’s all about the new Spider-Man nail polish line by OPI.

Let me know what you think of it! Once more are posted there, I’ll post updates here as well!

Happy Writing,

Becoming an Intern

A few weeks ago, I applied for a writing internship with Feminine Studios in Colorado Springs, Colorado. They ended up choosing two interns, and I’m going to be one of them. I’m very excited about this for a few different reasons.

  • I’ll be doing a lot of writing: a weekly blog post and 4-5 feature-length articles every month for the company’s new e-zine. The subject is femininity/women empowerment, which is one of the few things I’ve never written extensively on. I’m looking forward to this immensely because it’ll broaden my writing skills, as well as my portfolio.
  • There is a possibility of employment afterward. This is still being worked out and may not happen at all, but I’m hopeful.

Feminine Studios is all about making women feel beautiful and confident. They offer boudoir photography and videography and also offer empowerment classes on a regular basis. As I mentioned above, they’re located in Colorado Springs, and I’ll be interning remotely for an initial period of 90 days. I’m really anxious to get started! When/if possible, I’ll post here and link to my writing when it’s available on the FS blog and through the e-zine. I haven’t decided how I’ll do this just yet, but that’s something I’ll worry about as I go along.

This is going to be an interesting journey, I think. Stay tuned.

Writing, Readers & the Inspiration to Carry On

Lately, I’ve been trying to get back into my writing. The itch to write has been present for almost two months now, but things were preventing me from actually sitting down to write. The main thing was packing up my apartment and moving. I’m done with that now and am settled into a spare bedroom at my parents’ house for a while.

So, why can’t I write?

It’s not that I don’t want to. Its not that the itch to do so isn’t there. It’s that nobody I live with respects the fact that I write. Here, writing can “always be done later,” and isn’t a “real job.”

This saddens me. Because it feels like my writing doesn’t matter to anyone but me. Perhaps that’s the way it’s supposed to be? I don’t know. It would just be nice to have some support from family. Right now, it feels like there’s nothing and to be honest, that hurts.

So, what to do about this situation.

I have one friend who is constantly supportive of my writing endeavors. He offers daily encouragement, yells at me when I don’t want to writer (thereby making me write), and always reads new chapters and offers wonderful feedback. I’m so grateful for this that there’s really not a word to describe just how happy I am that I have this person. What I’ve determined is that I need a group of people like him. I need more than just him, even though if that doesn’t happen, I’ll always be grateful with him alone.

I think I’ve convinced myself that without more than one reader, I can’t get very far in my work. I don’t know if this is true or not. I think the problem is that I feel belittled when people aren’t interested in what I do or what I’ve created. As I stated above, the fact that very few people care is disheartening. It hurts. It hurts because I believe–I’ve always believed–that support is essential to any type of long-term endeavor, especially writing. I feel that without support, my writing means absolutely nothing. But, at the same time, it means so much to me that I’m not willing to let it go. So, there’s that.

I’ve considered putting a call for readers out there somewhere. But, until I’ve determined the best way to go about doing so, I’m going to write. Because I need to. I have to get this story out there. Somehow, some way. So, I’ll continue writing until it’s done, and afterward, I’ll see where it takes me.

Happy Writing,

What to Expect

So, here we are, at the new home for “A Novel Pursuit.” I decided to changed the web address because, eventually, I want to work toward making this site a little more personal. A new web address is an obvious start to that.

At this particular moment, I’m not sure what else will change. I still plan to do the links and writing prompt posts on the weekends. I plan to rethink what to post during the week. Some things may be personal, but everything will be writing-related somehow. I definitely want to keep that theme as I move forward.

I’m going to be moving over the next couple of weeks, so posts may be few and far between until I get everything settled. Stick around, though. Regular posts will be coming. Until then, happy writing!

Purpose (A Non-Writing Post)

Even though I have plenty I should be doing every day, I still seem to find the time to let my mind wander. This is never a good thing. It’s been wandering everywhere lately, and most that read this will know where it’s been wandering to.

Over the past couple of days, I’ve been finding myself wondering what my purpose is. What am I doing here? Why am I where I am? Why are things so difficult for me, but so easy for seemingly everyone else? How do I get out of this “funk” (for lack of a better, more descriptive term) that I’m in?

I recently read “Man’s Search for Meaning” by Viktor Frankl. In it, he talks about how it’s easier to accept your circumstances if you know you have something to live for. If you give up and tell yourself things will never get better, that’s how things will stay. He uses his time in a Nazi concentration camp to illustrate his points. (The book is a great read, by the way, and I recommend it.)

Now, I have goals set for myself. I’m going to get through this summer unscathed. I’m going to finish the novel I’m writing for my thesis. I’m going to graduate on time in December. And, if all goes well, I will be admitted to the University of Denver for my PhD in Creative Writing and will start there in the fall of 2012.

Those are my goals, both short and long-term. They’re set, and I’ve spoken with others about many of them.

Even though I have these goals, I’m still struggling with why I’m here. What am I doing here in Milwaukee, Wisconsin? I’m going to school, yes, but what’s the bigger purpose? Is there one? I’ve been asking myself these and many other related questions, especially over the last five months.

Out of all of this, out of all of the things that have happened to me, both recently and in the past, I’ve come to one conclusion regarding my purpose:

I am here on this Earth for you. To be whatever you need me to be. To be a friend, a sounding board, someone to talk to about your deepest fears or your happiness, or, if it’s in God plans, to be something more. That is what I’m here for.

You’ll never read this. I know that. But I needed to write it.
Maybe, someday, you’ll come across it. If not, that’s okay, but know that it’s here.

And so am I.
Waiting.

Quotes Corner: E.L. Doctorow

With such plagues as writers block and lack of motivation constantly lurking around every corner, quotes from other writers (who have most likely dealt with these same problems) can be a saving grace of sorts for the rest of us. Hence the reasoning behind the creation of “Quotes Corner.”Certain weeks may be themed (by author), while others may be random.

Writers need inspiration, and need it often. It is my hope that you’ll find some here.

  • “Good writing is supposed to evoke sensation in the reader – not the fact that it is raining, but the feeling of being rained upon.”
  • “History is the present. That’s why every generation writes it anew. But what most people think of as history is its end product, myth.”
  • “It’s like driving a car at night. You never see further than your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.”
  • “Planning to write is not writing. Outlining, researching, talking to people about what you’re doing, none of that is writing. Writing is writing.”
  • “The writer isn’t made in a vacuum. Writers are witnesses. The reason we need writers is because we need witnesses to this terrifying century.”
  • “Writers are not just people who sit down and write. They hazard themselves. Every time you compose a book your composition of yourself is at stake.”
  • “Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia.”
  • “Writing is an exploration. You start from nothing and learn as you go.”

[Were these quotes helpful? Is there anyone you’d like to see here? What inspires you the most? Let me know in the comments.]

Happy Writing,

Back to Regularly Scheduled Programming…Hopefully

I’d like to start out by saying that I am, by no means, better or “out of the woods” as so many people like to put it, but I’m going to try to push on. So, here I am.

Since early February, I’ve been doing a lot of personal journal writing and I’ve learned a lot from it. Not only about who I am as a person, a friend, and a writer, but how I try to cope with certain situations in life. I’ve always tried to cope through writing, which is why I went to my journal almost from day one. The journal is written to a “you,” and those of you who I’ve kept in contact with know who the “you” is. Writing it this way allowed me to get my feelings out in an easier way than had I just simply written down what had happened.

Over the last few weeks, I sat down with Louise DeSalvo’s “Writing as a Way of Healing” and read it from cover to cover. She repeatedly stresses that journal writing needs to be approached in a certain way. One must write down the situation exactly as it happened and then we must write down every feeling as a result of the event–how it made us feel when it happened and how we feel about it now. If the situation is ongoing, as mine is, I will continue to write down the things that happen and how I feel about them.

I believe the situation–my situation–has gotten marginally better, which in itself, is something. I don’t know what will happen from here on out. I can’t say for sure that I’ll be back here often, but I am going to try. Not because I want to, but because I have to. Writing, after all, is part of who I am as a person, whether that person is fractured or not. I don’t know if I’ll ever be whole again and the future of this “situation” is certainly uncertain at this point.

I don’t know if it will be reconciled and I don’t know how long it will be until I am back to being myself again. I may end up never being myself again. I could end up being a better me. The thing is, that fact of what I will be is unknown. I’ll keep working toward completion because I promised myself I would, whether it be in my writing or working to understand who I am as a person.

Let’s see where this takes me, shall we?